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Shopping, mexican, ice cream and friends

2:15pm Wake up. Slept in not wanting to be awake cause of the night before (also went to bed at 6:30am)
2:30pm Angie texts me wanting to hang out
2:40pm Angie shows up and we sit around talking a bit. Decide we want Starbucks and leave.
3:00pm have Starbucks chatting about the night before and all the drama that happened.
3:10pm Decided to go to go get Michael to go shopping with us at the Avenues Mall.

Texting Baron’s best friend Kale:
“Michael says hes hanging out with you later. Did you know Baron gets really stressed sometimes because he thinks his best friends like you better?
“Yea were going shopping. Angie is joining us. I’m sorry he gets stressed….It’s not like im doing it purposely!”
“It’s just stressing him out, like last night, it seemed like they didnt give a fuck about him”
“Well the thing is they do. They just wanted a friend over I was free to hang so I came over. The truth is, Baron and Nicole could have hung out with him but they decided to be alone in his room. They could have ALL hung out and then I wouldn’t have come over…Am I just not allowed to be friends with them?”
“They were talking about stuff he cant talk to them about because its about them. Basically what im saying to you now. You do what you want, im just giving you info.”


3:30pm
We show up to get Michael chatting and laughing. Baron is home. He apparently wants to go but….I knew Angie wanted to talk to Michael about what was going on with Baron so I had to say no to Baron going.
It made me feel like shit.

Talking with Kael again because he’s with Baron:
“He wants to go…”
“I know he does. I want him to. But…”
“But?”
“I miss hanging out with him. I really do. I miss him a lot. But the thing is I know Angie wants to talk to Michael about all this so its like how Baron was last night with Nicole. You cant talk about the person in front of the person!”
“He just wanted you to be honest with him.”  (Baron had called me)
“Well…I didn’t want to say it out loud…”
“THATS what he wanted you to tell him. He coulda guessed”
“Well I’d love for him to join us but I cant control other people. They would talk about it regardless, it would just be while were shopping they’d fall behind or walk ahead and then Baron might over hear and that’d cause drama”
“Well honestly you can control it. But he isnt mad. He’s just really stressed about everything right now”
“I cant. I cant control others. I just don’t want him being mad at me for something I can’t control. I just hate feeling like he’s mad at me.”
“He was mad that you wouldnt just tell him”
“Like I said. I didn’t want to say it aloud because I would have gotten an earful about saying it aloud!”
“i guess so. Hes not mad anymore he just feels sad when he cant for those reasons”
“Well fuck. I tried to avoid hurting anyone. But it seems like no matter what I do I just fucked up.”
“No its okay really lauren. Just be happy.”
“I’ll try”

During all this texting we were driving to the mall and wondering just a tiny bit. The three of us made our way through Hot Topic and Spenser’s by the time Kale spoke to me again. During that time the three of us laughed and joked about everything. Keeping our minds off any drama in anyone’s life.

Kale and I:
“Want some maybe good news?”
“Yes?”
“This is just my opinion, but i think baron will eventually realize youre all he’s got. Even if he doesnt like you now.”
“That’s great. But how long is that going to take?”
“Im not saying its for certain, just an opinion. “
“I know. I just hope he comes to his senses soon.”
“Yea me too, i miss you.” (We cant hang out much sadly cause of all the crap going on.)
“I miss you too. I just hope it changes soon..”
“I know. But we cant control him. I mean if things were going to be the same, id say there is no way, but i know you’ve changed.”

From there we talked about how I changed as Angie, Michael and I wondered around more laughing at just about everything. We found our way downstairs to these massage chairs and played on them for a good hour or so. The day continued in laughter and silliness.

It was around 10pm when Angie left. Michael and I decided to go to Baron’s house. So we are hanging out at Baron’s. Michael, Matt, Baron and I. I poke fun at Baron calling him a loser because he didnt hang with us at first he played on his computer. Well after that he came and joined us.

The night was spent laughing at stupid shit. Once or twice I noticed Baron following me from room to room but I said nothing. He wanted to show me the present he got from Kael and after seeing it he gave me a nice, long hug. I went in his room after while and noticed he still had the old pictures of me up, the writing in chalk was still up…I saw our old dart/tack board sitting in Baron’s open closet.

Continuing with the random stuff Baron would play around with me a bit. I fell asleep on the sofa for a while. I know…before I fell asleep I could have sworn I felt someone staring at me. Either way I woke up with a blanket on top of me. I think Michael did it but i’m not positive.

When I was leaving Baron pulled me into a hug. It was one of those long, tight, hugs. He held me, lighty rubbing my back with his thumb as he squeezed me tight. I felt his head in my shoulder and hair. We stayed like that for a time then I was saying goodbye to the kitties. Right before I actually walked out he gave me another hug, not as long, but a tight hug. And he told me to “be safe” which he hasn’t said in a while.

Part of me wonders if talking to Nicole helped him. Because I just go this sort of happy/clingy/something feeling from him all day.

So here I am now at 6:05 am finishing this up, my eyes are getting heavy an falling quickly. I guess im gonna queue and what not…Time to pass out.

2 years ago | J | Notes
New dress for the wedding!! #pretty #iphone4s #instagram #sweet #cute #wedding #dress #shopping (Taken with instagram)

New dress for the wedding!! #pretty #iphone4s #instagram #sweet #cute #wedding #dress #shopping (Taken with instagram)

12 months ago | J | 0 notes
savvlles:

I got i picture of this sick fuck before he walked away.
i was at the store looking for items i could use for cosplay, when i notice this man walking past me multiple times within 10 minutes. As i was moving on to other isles, i noticed he kept following me and glancing at me and making excuses to brush past me (people dont normally squeeze by you with their crotch facing you now do they?) and this is when i knew something was up.
So, i move to an isle to bait him for this picture, as he approaches me directly this time, i turn around to try and snap a picture before yelling “APPROACH ME AGAIN AND ILL HAVE YOU REPORTED.” no response, he just walks away. so thinking he’s been scared off, because i hadn’t seen him for a good 25 minutes after that, i finish up my shopping, and as im reaching for a bottle of nail polish, i see a large hand lean against the shelf and this man chuckle and say ” oh sorry” as he grabs my hip. i didnt hear him come near me, and it scared the shit out of me,(mind you im 5’0” and only 16) so my automatic reaction was to punch, kick, and claw my way free, but i mostly did kicking and managed to give him a mighty kick to the crotch (go dancer legs go!) and ran towards the first employee i could find. i showed them this picture and she had at least 6 of the employees try to find him. but apparently he had already left.
Dont take this shit from ANYONE. if some one is making you feel unsafe, try to get a clear picture of your attacker and report them to the closest security officer/employee/cop you can find. No one deserves to feel unsafe.
(this was in the Anaheim/Fullerton area and I would watch out for this man in case i wasn’t his only victim.)

This makes me sick. It reminds me of work, which sometimes makes me sick too. Lemme add something to this. If you go to a public library, do the shelvers a favor, pay attention. 
It&#8217;s scary to be shelving and have someone pop up behind you, even if you are only looking for a book or movie. It&#8217;s easy to get cornered in a library. 
Also, pay attention to them, and I don&#8217;t mean in a creepy way. But if you see someone chatting up a shelver and they look uncomfortable walk over and ask a question, ask them to help you find something, anything. Just get them away from the person. 
I don&#8217;t know how many times I could have used a person like this when I was at work.
I don&#8217;t know how many times I&#8217;ve had to tell a guy to leave me alone because I&#8217;m working, only for them to keep talking, to keep hinting at wanting to get in my pants. (and I&#8217;m not just saying that, I&#8217;ve more or less had guys ask me to go into the bathroom to do it&#8230;when I&#8217;ve said nothing but &#8220;I&#8217;m working sir.&#8221;) 
I don&#8217;t know how many times I&#8217;ve had to say I was married, or a lesbian just to get them to back off&#8230;.and sometimes that doesn&#8217;t even work. (Usually the response is &#8220;He&#8217;ll never know&#8221; or &#8220;You just haven&#8217;t met the right guy, I&#8217;m that guy.&#8221;) 
We get stalked around the library all the time. With people pretty much doing what this guy did to OP. They follow, they watch, they get close enough to touch, and sometimes they do. 
I&#8217;ve been flashed on a couple occasions, I&#8217;ve had guys follow me from one floor to another. I even had a guy follow me home. Luckily I live a block away, in the center of downtown, and when I was almost at my door I turned around, smiled at him, mostly just because I wanted to get a REALLY good look at his face, and headed back to work. Once there, I asked a cop to walk me home.
This sort of crap happens a lot more than people realize. Like OP says, TAKE A PICTURE.  I have many pictures of the creepers from my work. I send them to my boss, who sends them to security. They keep an eye out for these men and watch them when they come in next time looking for any reason to trespass them.

Also, look them in the eye, study the face just in case. Sometimes if they are being really creepy, like OP&#8217;s guy was, this can get them to back off.  It doesn&#8217;t always work, and sometimes ignoring them can be better. But it doesn&#8217;t hurt to get a good look at the face so you can describe it to cops later if needed. 

But seriously. I&#8217;m so sorry for what happened to you OP. I hope that this guy gets caught.

savvlles:

I got i picture of this sick fuck before he walked away.


i was at the store looking for items i could use for cosplay, when i notice this man walking past me multiple times within 10 minutes. As i was moving on to other isles, i noticed he kept following me and glancing at me and making excuses to brush past me (people dont normally squeeze by you with their crotch facing you now do they?) and this is when i knew something was up.

So, i move to an isle to bait him for this picture, as he approaches me directly this time, i turn around to try and snap a picture before yelling “APPROACH ME AGAIN AND ILL HAVE YOU REPORTED.” no response, he just walks away. so thinking he’s been scared off, because i hadn’t seen him for a good 25 minutes after that, i finish up my shopping, and as im reaching for a bottle of nail polish, i see a large hand lean against the shelf and this man chuckle and say ” oh sorry” as he grabs my hip. i didnt hear him come near me, and it scared the shit out of me,(mind you im 5’0” and only 16) so my automatic reaction was to punch, kick, and claw my way free, but i mostly did kicking and managed to give him a mighty kick to the crotch (go dancer legs go!) and ran towards the first employee i could find. i showed them this picture and she had at least 6 of the employees try to find him. but apparently he had already left.

Dont take this shit from ANYONE. if some one is making you feel unsafe, try to get a clear picture of your attacker and report them to the closest security officer/employee/cop you can find. No one deserves to feel unsafe.

(this was in the Anaheim/Fullerton area and I would watch out for this man in case i wasn’t his only victim.)

This makes me sick. It reminds me of work, which sometimes makes me sick too. 

Lemme add something to this. If you go to a public library, do the shelvers a favor, pay attention.

It’s scary to be shelving and have someone pop up behind you, even if you are only looking for a book or movie. It’s easy to get cornered in a library. 

Also, pay attention to them, and I don’t mean in a creepy way. But if you see someone chatting up a shelver and they look uncomfortable walk over and ask a question, ask them to help you find something, anything. Just get them away from the person. 

I don’t know how many times I could have used a person like this when I was at work.

I don’t know how many times I’ve had to tell a guy to leave me alone because I’m working, only for them to keep talking, to keep hinting at wanting to get in my pants. (and I’m not just saying that, I’ve more or less had guys ask me to go into the bathroom to do it…when I’ve said nothing but “I’m working sir.”) 

I don’t know how many times I’ve had to say I was married, or a lesbian just to get them to back off….and sometimes that doesn’t even work. (Usually the response is “He’ll never know” or “You just haven’t met the right guy, I’m that guy.”) 

We get stalked around the library all the time. With people pretty much doing what this guy did to OP. They follow, they watch, they get close enough to touch, and sometimes they do. 

I’ve been flashed on a couple occasions, I’ve had guys follow me from one floor to another. I even had a guy follow me home. Luckily I live a block away, in the center of downtown, and when I was almost at my door I turned around, smiled at him, mostly just because I wanted to get a REALLY good look at his face, and headed back to work. Once there, I asked a cop to walk me home.

This sort of crap happens a lot more than people realize. 
Like OP says, TAKE A PICTURE.  I have many pictures of the creepers from my work. I send them to my boss, who sends them to security. They keep an eye out for these men and watch them when they come in next time looking for any reason to trespass them.

Also, look them in the eye, study the face just in case. Sometimes if they are being really creepy, like OP’s guy was, this can get them to back off.  It doesn’t always work, and sometimes ignoring them can be better. But it doesn’t hurt to get a good look at the face so you can describe it to cops later if needed. 

But seriously. I’m so sorry for what happened to you OP. I hope that this guy gets caught.

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